Teabreak... have an oreo!
Look at the cookie in between the lotus paste! Like any regular piece of quarter-size mooncake, the lotus paste was sweet and the baked brown skin layer looked a tad dry and oily, but the nicest was the oreo! It still had a little bit of crisp in it!
Wonderful sin! 250 calories.
CLASH ! ! !
FED UP AH!
Told my boss this evening that I was planning to shift my block leave from Feb 07 to end Dec of this year. She turned to her computer, type type, open some files, and concluded that I shouldn't take block leave then since there was another colleague taking it at the same period. Ok. Fine. Even when that colleague is situated at a different site office from me and doing different work from me.
Since that was the case, I suggested that I take 1 - 2 days off instead of a full two-week block. Before even asking me for the exact date, she forewarned me that it may not be approved depending on the dates I am asking for. Bloody hell! Only 1 or 2 days also must go through such tedious approving process! It's not as if there are nobody else in the office to do the bloody stupid work! What sparked the fury in me was her unsympathetic attitude towards the significance I put towards the potential travelling plans I might have in end Dec.
"Don't confirm your plans yet before confirming your leave with me. Don't book already then tell me that you cannot change your plans..." Rubbish lot! You think I am going to forego a good deal when I see one at the NATAS? Please lah! Use your bloody brain to think before even trying to convince me that your work is important enough to overtake my personal agenda!
"Are you prepared to absorb the cost if I don't approve your leave?" NO! Of course not lah! Who the hell will do that? It's my leave entitlement!
"Yes, it's your entitlement, but you can go ask HR and they will tell you the same thing: leave may not be approved due to work exigencies." Work exigency! How many times have people's leave been cancelled due to such bao-ka-liao reasoning?! Can find something more reasonable or not? Hello! I am not a slave of the company. I have already spent more than half my time in a day slogging at the office. What more you want of me? Mind you, I still have 28 days of annual leave to clear till the end of April next year! Ask me to take leave on other days! Hmph! As if it's as simple as said. People who wanted to go home to visit her parents in Malaysia still have to go through an excrutiating procedure of obtaining her colleague's "blessings" before allowed to go, what more me? I am just a local citizen with no immediate family and kids to take care of.. "so should be very free mah".
I am finding myself less and less tolerant of this workplace. Endless work, shortage of staff, long working hours, bosses who knew how to threaten staff with the supreme HR who built unfair terms into the employment contract (yar, "work exigency" is one of them).. It is as frustrating as having milo spilt onto my white tees for the past 2 mornings at work!
SHITTY! I have been brewing milo for as long as I worked in this site office and none of such has happened to me before! Ominous.
I can only see 2 options lying in front of me now:
1) To forego any possibility of travelling outside the holiday stretch in Dec.
2) To give up my position and leave before my holiday.
NOW, I must be more enthusiastic and diligent in my job search. Must widen my scope to include even banking jobs, operations jobs, customer service jobs, any better-paying job that don't treat it's workers as slaves to the organisation. Only then do I not have to choose between any of the above options without feeling worse off. When this happens, I will give her (my boss) the bloody word!
ANGRY!!!
A surprise... or more of a shock?
I received 3 surprises yesterday.
The first one came a little unexpectedly. Rather pleasant as it put a stop to all my guesses.
The second one was rather unexpected. Very pleasant.
The third one was silent yet abrupt. More of a shock. Not pleasant. When you most expected the truth, you get the opposite or at best a half-truth. Maybe I was too demanding.
How much will I do?
I wonder just how much I will do for a friend.
This afternoon at 12.47pm, a friend called me but I was sound asleep and didn't hear the ring. I only managed to reply the call at 1.26pm, at half a sleepy tone, "eh you looking for me ah?"
"yar.. i am just wondering if you are with your bf now... whether if you are able to come pick me up... " She was crying as she was saying these.
This is the first time I heard her cry. To me, she is always the emotional yet independent & resilent woman who seems so strong yet fragile at the same time. I have always known that she had issues with her family. This time round, she made her word true when she packed her bags, carried her cats and took off to a friend's home. I was stunned and too lost for words that I could only acknowledge what she was saying during the brief conversation I had with her. I felt apologetic for not being able to pick up her call at 12.47pm. I wonder just how much I could do for her if I pick up her call at 12.47pm.
After putting down the phone, I begin to wonder...
Am I the first person she has called?
How did she feel when she couldn't get through to me?
Will I put her up at my place? If I do, where's she gonna sleep?
Will I help her to find a place to stay?
Or should I encourage her to return home?
Will I provide her with financial assistance if there's a need to?
How's her life gonna be with this change of events?
Should I tell our mutual friends?
Sounds kinda mean of me to think of the logistical arrangements and ripple effects it could have on me when a friend out there badly needs probably just my understanding and a listening ear. But I can't help it. I want to help. I feel complemented when people turn to me for advice or simply just for a grousing session. Herein is a friend who has fulfilled all my desires to feel appreciated, and who even promised me a shoulder to lean on in difficult times. I love the exclusivity zone that she has put me into. Now I wonder just how much of her definition of a "good friend" have I managed to stand up to.
Feeling right now: inadequate.
I finally sent out my first resume! :)
