qUARTER-lIFE cRISIS
Boss said: "All my bosses come to work early.... It's good to come early.... you feel you are in control..... can do a few things before others start strolling in.... " That was last Thursday. My arrival times, from then, took a departure from the usual 9.15am.
Last Friday: 9.00am
This Monday: 8.45am
This Tuesday: 8.45am
Today: 8.50am
Goosh! Old habits die hard.
I can't imagine what my arrival time will be on the 15th & 16th once TB needs not arrive in school early anymore, and the 22nd and beyond once I shift to not-that-accessible-yet-far Sengkang.
Anyway, it's about time that I review my career aspirations. I have been working in this same ol' company since March 2004. 1 job, 2 years, 3 roles and 4 stages. One friend thought I had a pretty fast progression, from being a temp to a contract staff to a perm Analyst to the present perm Associate, well within 24 months, of which till date I spent 4. 7, 11 and 5 months in each respective stage. She didn't realised that I felt most cheated during the 3rd phase of my job.
This seemingly nice-sounding "Analyst" position was created in beginning of 2005, just right after I was to be promoted to the next phase, which could be "Associate" if not for this organisational 'improvement' in ranking system! What's worse, my pay has to be one of the lowest amongst all the Analysts just because the department is out of budget, and I believe cutting back on staff costs is one of Boss's measures. This guy talks about social responsibility when he ordered us not to claim our meals ($5 per day; $100 per month!) whenever we stayed back for overtime work, career development when he wants us to stay in the company with better sounding ranks yet lower pay, career progression when he couldn't afford to provide higher compensation to retain high-fliers.. This guy's from India. This guy's a foreign talent.
I contemplated staying with the company for more years to come, after all, "experience" is all that's needed to climb up the corporate ladder here. After 10 years of "hard" work, you will be termed as "AVP" or "VP". Yup, I gotta be very patient, yet even without it, I am sure my laziness to search for an oasis will propel me towards the direction landing me into that same position. It is simply tedious to even write out a resume and then attend numerous interviews and utterly demoralizing to receive "thank you for your application but the vacacny has been filled / our organization is unable to meet your expectations" letters/emails.
Arrgghhh! Everyone is leaving for greener pastures! LPX is going back to her studies... ELI is looking for a Treasury-related job in some more "ataks" bank... even GT is thinking of leaving this ol'company!
Is it a wonderfully sad thing to know that I still have boundless to learn in this same job and my only grouse is the perceived low compensation? Is it a downright pessimistic view to hold on to the same job to continue grousing over the perceived low compensation and yet worrying over obtaining an even lower salary if I change my job?
Sigh... before the answers to the above can be established and verified, I already found myself guilty of blogging during office hours.
PS: I finally have internet access in the office! But they blocked out hotmail, yahoo mail and blogspot!
posted by slingwoof @ 6/07/2006 10:55:00 PM
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