zippers creepers
I didn't mean to keep staring at his 'sensitive' part. But I couldn't help it! It was dark brown or black with some greenish yellow strips on its body. Very hairy. Pretty cute too when it made an "ohm" sign as it progressed to wander around, though never far away from that zipper spot.
EEK! And it disappeared into the man's zipper! I stared so much harder... but it didn't come out again... I mean, suddenly there was a creepy crawly happily strolling around his zipper area, how could I resist my wonders?
Blog updated in Tampines Regional Library, 7.57pm.
ROCKET SCIENCE
“Social events will not only be fun but will lead to beneficial introductions. Someone will say something that will influence and alter your life. Keep an open mind – changes will lead to greater enthusiasm.” – TODAY, “Your Horoscope Today”, 16th June 2006
I hardly flipped the papers nowadays. My boss, who’s sitting next to me, asked one fine day: “Do you know of this blah blah blah fund MAS approved?” She continued to elaborate on the opportunities this fund presented since our company was the first to foresee such an outcome and went on to highlight how my colleague was complimented for assisting the internal business division in gaining a signoff from our top management to launch the product once MAS announced its approval. This means to say, our company could very well be the first in the market to sell it!
Then the following day, she said again: “You heard of the rate hikes?” “Ah?” I was a little stunned. “Oh, you don’t read the papers ...” She acknowledged my deficiency in that area as she continued to explain to me about the recent prediction of interest rate hikes. And today! She issued all of us our new Key Performance Indicators (KPIs) during our monthly section meeting. Yar, the new KPI is more definitive then the previous one but it sure makes a useless kid out of me in the entire team. I seemed to be the most redundant name on the payroll – little projects, always with a mentor in the back scene despite 6 months into the role, ignorant of the systems blah blah blah… Looks like my upcoming performance appraisal in Oct is going to suffer a big hit.
ANYWAY, since I was home by 11.45pm on a Friday night, I decided to do the stuffs I missed doing for a long time, that is, to sit down and watch a TV program without any distraction & to read the papers. And I really did! I watched Beautiful Boxer on Channel U – no internet, no snacks, no msn, only the occasional conversations with my parents – and ran through TODAY while performing ‘release management’ in the bathroom.
It was then I came across the above ‘citations’. Whoa! I was a little shocked! Very true. I just conducted a little meeting over dinner with our newly formed SMRT Challenge Team, comprising of K, A, W and myself. I knew all 3 of them. But K only knew W and myself; W only knew K and myself, and A only knew myself. It turned out better than expected! It was pretty funny seeing K and A misunderstanding each other as they talked about kungfu novels by Jin Yong. Definitely very interesting to see 2 experts in Chinese conversing to 2 idiots in the same language. Of course, needless to say, I belonged to the former category. I also uncovered a lot of myths regarding myself. I realised I was playing netball and basketball in secondary school, didn't wear socks, had an equal number of guy friends versus girl friends... and I guess my prior wonders about myself being non-sportive , sock-liking , had more girl friends had a conclusion that evening.
A little sidetrack, I was early for my appointment since I decided not to go back to Chai Chee Office after my course in Shenton. So I went on a little way around Bugis Junction while waiting for the others to turn up at the MRT station control by 7.15pm. Saw Giordano. Great! They have the comfy khaki pants that I liked and I went in for a fitting. 15% off for people who purchased items on their birthday! Immediately, I bought two. Then half an hour later, I discovered A gave me a Giordano black polo tee! Haha. A tad size too small though. And I got a free 'Firehouse' at Swensens too! The best part was the staff didn't even bother to verify my birth date! Wahaha.
I wonder how much was K irritated by us as we continued in a nonchalant fashion to engage in jokes she couldn’t catch, but I was sure angry over someone trying to stuff the extra copy of application form into my already bursting haversack! Yes, it IS genuine anger. Don’t blame me, I did forewarn that person, but the latter simply refused to believe it.
Maybe I am getting more and more temperamental. I am already amazed that I should get worked up over such a small event which was probably done out of fun. The power of a big group; the conceding of the un-armored self; the grousing of the defeated party.
Yes. This is a very long entry. Incoherently written too. But so what? Don’t make your problem into my problem even though I make mine into yours!
"Show me the proof"
Tired. The number of hours spent sleeping at night no longer correspond to the level of alertness during daytime. 5 hours, 8 hours, 6 hours, I feel tired all the same. Jogging, no jogging, still as tired.
Funny people make ambiguous statements. My boss is one of them. My colleague is one of them. He is one of them. She is one of them. I am one of them too, apparently. As if my work is not difficult enough, they must issue me with weird answers that have its sense of truth in the same path as its sense of ill logic.
How many meanings are there to the word "activation"?
How many auditors are we unable to fend off when they shoot out "Who instructed us? Show me the proof.."
Why are there so many "exceptional handlings" when we told auditors we have a standard process?
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"This is life."
"Nothing's perfect."
"We need to protect ourselves."
I ought to agree with them.
qUARTER-lIFE cRISIS
Boss said: "All my bosses come to work early.... It's good to come early.... you feel you are in control..... can do a few things before others start strolling in.... " That was last Thursday. My arrival times, from then, took a departure from the usual 9.15am.
Last Friday: 9.00am
This Monday: 8.45am
This Tuesday: 8.45am
Today: 8.50am
Goosh! Old habits die hard.
I can't imagine what my arrival time will be on the 15th & 16th once TB needs not arrive in school early anymore, and the 22nd and beyond once I shift to not-that-accessible-yet-far Sengkang.
Anyway, it's about time that I review my career aspirations. I have been working in this same ol' company since March 2004. 1 job, 2 years, 3 roles and 4 stages. One friend thought I had a pretty fast progression, from being a temp to a contract staff to a perm Analyst to the present perm Associate, well within 24 months, of which till date I spent 4. 7, 11 and 5 months in each respective stage. She didn't realised that I felt most cheated during the 3rd phase of my job.
This seemingly nice-sounding "Analyst" position was created in beginning of 2005, just right after I was to be promoted to the next phase, which could be "Associate" if not for this organisational 'improvement' in ranking system! What's worse, my pay has to be one of the lowest amongst all the Analysts just because the department is out of budget, and I believe cutting back on staff costs is one of Boss's measures. This guy talks about social responsibility when he ordered us not to claim our meals ($5 per day; $100 per month!) whenever we stayed back for overtime work, career development when he wants us to stay in the company with better sounding ranks yet lower pay, career progression when he couldn't afford to provide higher compensation to retain high-fliers.. This guy's from India. This guy's a foreign talent.
I contemplated staying with the company for more years to come, after all, "experience" is all that's needed to climb up the corporate ladder here. After 10 years of "hard" work, you will be termed as "AVP" or "VP". Yup, I gotta be very patient, yet even without it, I am sure my laziness to search for an oasis will propel me towards the direction landing me into that same position. It is simply tedious to even write out a resume and then attend numerous interviews and utterly demoralizing to receive "thank you for your application but the vacacny has been filled / our organization is unable to meet your expectations" letters/emails.
Arrgghhh! Everyone is leaving for greener pastures! LPX is going back to her studies... ELI is looking for a Treasury-related job in some more "ataks" bank... even GT is thinking of leaving this ol'company!
Is it a wonderfully sad thing to know that I still have boundless to learn in this same job and my only grouse is the perceived low compensation? Is it a downright pessimistic view to hold on to the same job to continue grousing over the perceived low compensation and yet worrying over obtaining an even lower salary if I change my job?
Sigh... before the answers to the above can be established and verified, I already found myself guilty of blogging during office hours.
PS: I finally have internet access in the office! But they blocked out hotmail, yahoo mail and blogspot! 
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