slosh down the pepper!

Unofficial work done on official grounds - First Half

11.20am. Feeling sleepy again... it seems to be the very same 'mode' that I am in ever since I swop to SD on 19 Dec 05. 10.30 am - 12.00pm, 3.00pm - 5.00pm: those are the slots that i have the hardest time trying to keep my eyes open and concentrate on whatever I am doing, be it merely surfing the intranet for staff offers, new career opportunities etc or planning my own calender to see which days are best to go off for a long long period of time... So many holidays falling on strategic days, better not waste them!

I wonder if things are slow-moving in this period where the marketing guys are more or less done with hitting their targets for the year and are slacking away now, or I am, as per what the boss says, a new addition to the team. So 'extra' that I have to bother myself with reading system manuals to kill time with a legitimate reason. On some days I am lucky to have one or two assignments from my mentor; on some other days, I am even luckier to receive no orders from him. Ironically, that kinda scares me. No work = No promotion = No money :(

This is the team that I have always wanted to join - the glam, the action, the recognition, the free gifts, the fun! Now that I am in, I wonder if my decision is right. I definitely enjoyed myself more when I am with the call agents. Even though that meant long hours of work, late nights till 1 - 2am, shift work, anger, frustration at indecisive, dunno-anything bosses, dealing with irritating troublesome customers, it still beats having to sit down at a patch of 7 empty workstations with me occupying the 8th in this deserted land, feeling helpless and useless. The superiority complex of being the leader and pioneer of a little team is reduced to an apple crumble - seemingly hard and chunky, but actually soft and weak.

What probably worries me more is that my bosses know that I am not doing anything much! I so much wanted to offer my assistance yet fear to discover that I can't be of much help with my limited knowledge of those damn bloody systems and stupidly funny processes and sparse data of the network that I could possibly tap on. Maybe the next step should be to try and make sense of those process maps ( I was the Management Representive in last year's ISO but I have little inkling of those maps *gasp*) and complicated manuals even when there is an absolute need to be able to have some form of application before the information sinks in and translates into knowledge.

The call agents asked me: "Ha! Regret right?"
I replied: "3 months! Then you ask me again..."
This is only the third week.

Sigh, it is time to pray hard. *..hope I get a promotion, pay increment, a big fat bonus, easy job...and I'll leave soon!*

Raise your glasses.... To my next green pasture!

posted by slingwoof @ 1/04/2006 08:58:00 PM